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Perfect | Natasha Friend

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Rating: ★★★★☆
An honest look at the harsh turns we can take in life when tragedy hits and the people you’d normally depend on are unable to be there for you. For Isabelle, it’s her mom. Ever since her father died suddenly a couple years past, her mother has become a different woman. An English Professor, she’s dropped to teaching part-time, no longer seems to care about her appearance, and does not discuss her late husband. In fact, she’s taken all of his pictures off the walls. For Isabelle, this only makes things harder.

To make matters worse, she hates the way she looks. An issue severely aggravated by the fact that her younger sister has dubbed her “Belly.”

After being caught throwing up by said younger sister, Isabelle is forced to go to Group. She hates the idea, but has no choice. And is caught totally off-guard when the most beautiful girl in school walks through the door.

Soon Ashley and Isabelle bond, and start spending more time together. Ashley, often left home alone, has a huge house with no end of food, and the binge-purge fests that take place there leave Isabelle feeling off-kilter for days afterward. It seems great at first–no hiding, no lying. But soon the novelty starts to wear off.

Time spent in Group, and also solo therapy sessions, is starting to impact Isabelle. She’s beginning to realize she eats when she feels bad. That maybe this is a coping mechanism gone horribly wrong. At home, her mother’s fits of mood start to anger her. At Ashley’s the un-ending food starts to grow old. It isn’t the same.

Once she first gets the words out of her mouth, about how her dad is gone and how much she misses him, everything starts to get easier. Not simple, not fun, but possible. Like asking to celebrate Hanukkah. Going ahead with it even when their mother says no. Asking for her aunt’s help to set up the decorations, and the family tree April did for school, using pictures of their dad they found hidden under their mother’s bed.

Bulimia is a hard cycle to break, but with a support network slowly forming, and a better understanding of herself and her motives, Isabelle begins to see a light that had been hidden from her. And suddenly “fine” doesn’t seem only a lie. It seems within reach.

Defining Dulcie | Paul Acampora

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Rating: ★★★★½

When Dulcie’s Father accidentally kills himself, it’s a bit of a shock. When her mother decides to move them off to California, it’s more than Dulcie is prepared to take. When she finds out her mother intends to get rid of her father’s truck, she officially draws the line: she takes it and drives herself back to Connecticut.

Upon arrival, she meets not her grandfather, as expected, but a girl she’s never seen before standing in the flowers. Roxanne, who now works for Dulcie’s grandfather, knows exactly who Dulcie is, and that her grandfather has been expecting her.

The welcome isn’t as warm as she had hoped. Turns out taking off and going cross-country as a teen worries your elders. But Frank does agree to let her stay. She even gets her old job back, though as punishment she will receive no pay for the summer. She also has to call her mother. This stipulation is easier to get around: she knows when her mother is going to be at work, and always makes sure to call when she won’t be there.

Back at work as a janitor, Dulcie makes fast friends with Roxanne, whom Frank has somewhat adopted, as it seems she’s not necessarily well taken care of at home. The night Dulcie drops by with her to get fresh clothes on their way to dinner with Dulcie’s suprise-visiting mother, Dulcie finds out just how bad Roxanne’s home life is. This harsh glimpse at events causes a flurry of actions on multiple fronts, which almost lead to disaster.

In the end, Dulcie, who’s always known who she is, gains a greater understanding of relationships, friendships, love, and home. Roxanne, who’s never had it great, adopts Dulcie’s family. While perhaps no one’s ended up quite where they expected, they all know they’ve found their place.

An excellent book, worth reading again (and again).

Perfect World | Brian James

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Rating: ★★★★½
In the world there are many cycles, and sometimes they exist between you and you. The inner commentator never letting you speak, too afraid you’ll only mess things up. The outer prtoector, trying to make you less visible, generally only make you more conspicuous. The friends who aren’t real, but are better than loneliness. The truths buried in closets, because it’s easier for some to pretend they never happened, even if nothing has been the same since, and the damage is still everywhere. Worrying that your haunted past will become your daunting future.

This is Lacie’s world.

Her father’s dead, he mother hides away in endless work, and Lacie is lost between the cracks of herself and a world in which she doesn’t belong. Can’t seem to fit in. Can’t seem to get it right.

Bit by bit, her best friend’s cruelness starts to become more apparent. Forced into agreeing to meet a boy, she soon realizes Benji is just about the only real thing in her life. Except for the ghosts.

Bit by bit, things get harder, and some get easier. Best friend Jenna is lost, but Lacie is found. Her mother begins to slowly come back, she begins to slowly move away. Away from the fake and the meanness she used to emulate. Away toward who she really is, and should be. Away towards Gretchen, returned to town after disappearing for years. Away into a perfect world, in which she does belong.